sarah’s not here, i skipped advertising cuz it’s flippin’ rainy outside, and i’ve organized all my dates/papers for the week. So now i’m just sitting here trying to figure out what to do. i wonder where everyone else is. this is gonna just be a basic ramble and we’ll see what happens. i might find a subject, and wander off on a tangent if i get bored. sooo. my small group. rachel keung, amy gray, rachel kaplan, and sarah showed up. i was kinda sad that bernice and diane didn’t come, but i’ll ask em about it later. but we DID schedule a sg dinner next tuesday before SG. I’m so proud and happy about the 2 freshmen that came. they’ve already got a really good grasp on bible study, and kept jumping in with thoughts and observations, and it made me feel all excited and fuzzy. and it went smoothly for me, i think. i was scared that i was gonna resort to umm-ing and uhh-ing when i lost my train of thought or wasn’t sure what to do next. but by the grace of God i managed to keep focused and such. besides the fact that i was too afraid to say ‘take off your shoes’ and just kept mumbling ’sewws’ everytime they walked in…i’ll work on being more intentional about trivial things like that oO. but yea, even rachel keung kept saying that it went well. ahh i can only hope this is a beautiful beginning to an even more beautiful SG this year. *prays*. well i’d write about Jon and Nicole and Mikey or whatever but i really just don’t wanna think about that right now. it’s none of my business besides the fact that it makes me sad that things are so different…but whatever. things will even out i think. i hope and pray that things will even out. although i can’t help feeling jealous of nicole sometimes that she’s able to connect with those 2 guys in the way that i wish i could but evidently can’t. it might be my fault, or it might be some other underlying factor that i’m not consciously aware of. however, i’m sure part of it is me too. i’m intimidated by jon and can’t act normally around him, and i also just don’t know what to do about mikey. he frustrates me with his behavior and yet i just pity him. i just pity him. -_- sarah and i are getting along just dandily. i get lots of ‘words of affirmation’ from her mixed in with the joking insults and derogatory remarks she throws at me quite often. but i know she loves me so whatevs. ahhh i have a lot on my plate, what with IV SG leading, convopartners, crisis nursery, classes, KCSA, piano lessons, and maybe a PSYC 290. theoretically it’ll work out, but i feel like i’m already running places all the time. but i AM using mary kim’s bike now and that makes life a heck of a lot easier, although i still feel like i’m going to run someone over ever second i’m on that thing. lemme think how many hours that entails…1.5 of selfprep/SG, 1.25 of bible prep, 2 of one-on-one/team mtgs, 1 of convopartnership, 2.5 of crisis nursery/commuting, classes w/e, KCSA maybe 1 a week, piano lesson/practice around 1.5, psyc 290 around 6-7. so added up that’s…almost 18 hours a week. and i have about 10 hours of free time during the week before 5 pm. and after that, whatever. but that DOES mean that i’m packed in there. (oh crisis nursery is saturday, so minus 2.5). ehh. i think i can do it. i just want to have time for my SG members too. aish. i think i’m gonna make some paper flowers now to put on top of the microwave.