i’m still tired. i can’t hold my eyes open very long, and i just feel like being alone. or i know i shouldn’t be alone, but i can’t bring myself to go find people. so i’m just sitting here typing up notes and doing reading that i normally wouldn’t do. i think i’m either crashing or pms-ing. i hope it’s the latter. if i don’t get out of this slump, my SG is gonna be in troubleee. speaking of which, i need to figure out when bible prep is. but yinting wrote all my invites for me (what a dear.) and i need to hand them out tomorrow. besides that, i’m pretty good. classes seem ridiculously easy. I don’t think i even need to show up to social psych or advertising. and maybe not even world music and ed psych…but i won’t risk it. actually i’m gonna try not to let myself fall into the skipping slump. i’d vow not to miss class, but i don’t know how hard this semester is gonna be yet…so we shall see. but i just want to get into the swing of things already. i wish this new-froshie thing would settle down already and that whoever is gonna be ‘one of us’ would be. but at the same time i can’t see many of the kids i’ve met so far fitting in with the quad-crowd. maybe nathan alderman but it runs in his blood i guess. and hardly; ryan wasn’t even around much. i’m not sure if i’ll be able to be around the quad so much if i want to really connect with my new SG members…gah this is gonna be hard. i wanted one girl that i could mentor this year, and Amy is a big girl who seems like she’ll probably have her own agenda, rachel seems like she’s scared of IV and has her own church group already, i haven’t even really met diane, and bernice is leaving at the end of the semester. oy. maybe someone will show up along the way. i can only pray so. or maybe He has something else in store for me. i dont know. but … hm at the moment i’m feeling kind of lonely. like i want a man-hug. but i’m not gonna think too hard about that. it’s just something that hits me every so often. man-hug. sigh. ok pin-ya, be happy, be happy. it’s my job to be happy right now. gah. i want to be happy.

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